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[18 Jul 2004|03:34am] |
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i gave her my heart, she gave me a pen.<3
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[27 Mar 2004|01:11pm] |
friends only, fools ass.
later and shit.
XXX
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[15 Feb 2004|03:06pm] |
i hate being alone.
</3
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[14 Feb 2004|01:24am] |
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salinas was amazing. kathryn is the raddest person ever. i love her soo much. i think im in love with her. shes perfect. my life is complete with her.
i cant breathe without you. i already miss you.
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[07 Feb 2004|06:14pm] |
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i leave for salinas in afew hours. im kinda nervous cuz i hate buses. oh well. shit happens. im seeing my lava. and i got alot of cds(about 400) for the bus ride and mr. jon vigil to talk to. im going to miss home. im going to miss my mom. </3>xxx</b>
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[06 Feb 2004|06:25pm] |
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isnt she BEAUTIFUL??????????????
2 more days and then SALINASSS!!!!!!!!!!! im sooo excited!! oh man.
byebyebyebyfl'kfhjfgfjgl'fdgflgjkfjhafjafjhfa'lkha'hfddddddddddddddkkblk'gl'bmfdldfh
i lava you sooo much!
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[04 Feb 2004|11:29am] |
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Name a band/artist that......
Reminds you of an ex-lover: blink 182
Reminds you of an ex-friend: 80s music
Makes you sad: copeland, modern day miracle, postal service
Makes you laugh: bonexsandwich, hulk hogan!!!
Makes you smile: loftus
You never want to hear again: this one blink song *tear*
Sums up your teenage years: new found glory
You want to get married to: postal service
You like to wake up to: caliban
You like out of your parents record collection: the cure, beach boys.
You love that you wouldn't know about if it wasn't for a friend: im not sure
You love the video more than the tune: im going to marc pepe. the new brittney spears.
Reminds you of your first crush/love: nfg
Reminds you of your now crush/love: saves the day :)
Makes you think of sex: between the buried and me cuz they are more than amazing!
Makes you think of being alone: copeland
Has only been released recently but you love already: im too lazy. armor for sleep!
Are embarrassed to admit you like: 50 cent
Perks you up (5): blah
this was from myspace but myspace is stupid right now
i jacked it from pepe.
<3i love you<3
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[02 Feb 2004|08:43pm] |
beavr3030: i love you
murdersbynight: aww i love you too
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[01 Feb 2004|02:05pm] |
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i think kathryn doesnt want me to come to salinas. i dont know why but shes been weird for afew days. whatever, im still going and if shes being weird when im there. i will just get a hotel room with jon and call it a day. oh yeah, jon vigil is coming to salinas with me. its going to be soooo much fun.
yesterday, i hung out with cass in gundo. it was fun. shes such a cute girl!!!
<333
PS-im depressed and lonely. peace out.
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[31 Jan 2004|12:58pm] |
i got the new scars of tomorrow. i didnt like it at first but now i really do. you should all get it!! i think im going to skare tactic, terror, laid to rest, donny brook, and madball tonight at showcase. been hanging out with shannon and kat ALOT.
thats about it.
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[22 Jan 2004|11:41pm] |
Dear My Love,
Sorry boo bear. i wanted to see tonight. but my friends car is fucked up. i didnt mean for this to happen. youre the only person i want to see. when i close my eyes youre the only one i see. dont be upset at me. im seeing you tomorrow.
xoxo
i love you.
-Greg.
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[20 Jan 2004|02:41pm] |
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Name: Beaver
Birthday: 8/4/85
Birthplace: Mar Vista, CA
Current Location: Mar Vista, CA
Eye Color: Hazel
Hair Color: Black
Righty or Lefty: Lefty
Zodiac Sign: Leo
Font: Verdana
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[ series 2 - your favorite ]
Music: New Found Glory
Cartoon: Family Guy
Color: Black and Blue
Car: any car
Slushy Flavor: Diet Coke
Magazine: cool ones
TV Show: Family Guy, Simpsons, Mr Rogers
Song at the Moment: California by Copeland
Language: English
Spice girl: Ginger Spice
Food & Beverage: Taco Bell and Carls Jr but i need to stop eating, im fat.
Subject in School: surfing when i was in high school.
Weekend Activity: hanging out and going to shows
Frozen Yogurt: sometimes, Ice Cream is better.
Roller Coaster: im scared of them.
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[ series 3 - what is ]
Your most overused phrase: oh
First thing you thought when you woke up: why?
Last image/thought you go to sleep with: with you.
First feature you notice of opposite sex: it depends
Best name for a Butler: Gaylynn.
Wussiest Sport: baseball
Your best feature: nothing
Your greatest fear: losing my legs.
Your greatest accomplishment: ?
Your most missed memory: having a gf.
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[ series 4 - you prefer ]
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Carls Jr
Single or Group Dates: dont know
Adidas or Nike: house shoes.
Chicken nuggets or Chicken fingers: the wendy kind
Dogs or Cats: dogs.
Rugrats or Doug: Doug
Single or Taken: Taken
Monica or Brandy: ha
Tupac or Jay-Z: 2 PAC
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes: Shaina Twain is awesome.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: both
One pillow or Two: one
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Hot chocolate or Hot cocoa: hot.
Cappucino or Coffee: i hate them
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[ series 5 - do you ]
Shower everyday: Yes
Have a crush: YES
Think you've been in love: i hope so
Want to go to college: soon
Like high school: no
Want to get married: i hope
Type correctly: never
Believe in yourself: at times
Have any tattoos? no
Have any piercings? plugs and septum
Get motion sickness: no
Think you're a health freak: no way
Get along with your parents: most of the time.
Like thunderstorms: yes
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[ series 6 - the future ]
Age you plan to be married: 89
Number and names of children: 1-3
Where will you be at age 20: i dont know.
Dream wedding: i dont dream about that.
How do you want to die: holding someone i care about ALOT
Dream job: to be in a band or something.
Country you'd like to visit: japan
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[ series 7 - opposite sex ]
Best eye color: i dont care
Best hair color: Dark
Short or long hair: Short
Best height: 5'9 and under
Best weight: i dont care
Best clothes: dont know
Best first date location: santa monica cliffs, it pretty there.
Best first kiss location: santa monica cliffs
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[ series 8 - other ]
Last time you slept with a stuffed animal: last night, my banana
Rings before you answer the phone: 2 so i can see who it is on calling ID, if not my mom screams at me.
What's on your mousepad: Droors
How many houses you've lived in: 1
How many schools you've gone to: 6
Bedroom carpet color: Blue
Shave your head for $5,000?: yes
Stranded on a desert island. Take three things. No people: computer, my music, and a carls jr/taco bell.
Best time of your life so far: being with someone i love.
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[18 Jan 2004|04:56pm] |
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why is it always about what we had? you should consintrate on remembering to forget about holding on to these days. the truth lies beneath lies it wont ever see the light (i dont want to see a thing). my hopes (murdered by your fears). im so sure of one thing, time changes peopl and places, situations just not you. youll never change, youll always stay the same. you wont be held because im letting go. its always the same thing always the same thing. is that all this is worth? there is 100 million ways to die but only one way to live and i anticipate my revenge.(dont know what is says here) grip the sheets tight, knuckles white and promise myself this is the last time. i swear this is last time and i wont regret anything. untill the day that i finally decide to speak. then youll know what it feels like. so why cant you feel me sliping. so i think im in love with the way you eyes reflect bright light but thats all we will ever be. untill the sun stikes solid ground (today is the day) we cave in, we fall apart. and when the spotlight shines again the night will be hours for hours. i cant understand how.......... but i understand that you fuck yourself and sometimes you just forget its hard, so hard. ......... just cant get it. bite down, so if i decide to run and get a big enough lead that you wont wanna chase me. (you dont know who i am anymore) ok so i gotta go you dont know who i am anymore. its just step back just a simple step back. (then it says something about breaking backs) at least i know i tried. these are just some words i sing to a song to fill in the gaps between the verse and voilent sing along. you dont know who i am any more. and now its overrated, purely overrated......(dont know what is says)....... and that wont change till you change and you wont change if it was the only thing i asked. is that all this is worth. i swear this is the last time and i wont regret anything.*and you know what this feels like* so why cant you feel me sliping.
fuck.
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[16 Jan 2004|12:01am] |
In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: Yes, to copeland
02. Bought something: no
03. Gotten sick: im always sick
04. Sang: yes
05. Eaten: yes
06. Been kissed: no
07. Felt stupid: always
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: yes
09. Met someone new: yes
10. Moved on: trying
11. Talk to an ex: nope
12. Missed an ex: yess
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yess
14. Had a serious talk: nope
15. Missed someone: yes, alex and others.
16. Hugged someone: yep
17. Fought with your parents: yeeh
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: yeah
Social Life:
01. Best girl friend: RIQUEL
02. Best guy friend: myself
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: no
04. If no, current dating partner: no
05. Hobbies: sitting in front of my computer all day, listening to music.
06. Pager: no way
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: both at times
08. What type automobile do you drive: 1989 my computer, its fast.
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: 2004 my computer, they are sooo fast.
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: friends
11. Where is the best hangout: at shows
12. Do you have a job: nope
13. Do you attend church: i should
14. Do you like being around people: i love it. i hate being alone
Who:
01. Have you known the longest: you
02. Do you argue the most with: RIQUEL
03. Do you always get along with: christen and alex.
04. Is the most trustworthy: myself
05. Makes you laugh the most: all my friends and RIQUEL.
06. Has been there through all the hard times: ha, no one.
07. Has the coolest parents: jesses and my mom is cool at times.
08. Has the scariest siblings: no idea
09. Is the most blunt: not here
10. Is the smartest: the dumb thing smarterchild on AIM
Personal:
01. Who is your role model: Mr. rogers but he died
02. What is some of your pet peeves: i dont have any pets
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: yes, you know who you are.
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: yeah
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: the sweet ones. and i like short hair alot.<3
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): i dont think so.
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: no way, its all about love.
08. Would you rather be dumper or dumped? dumper
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": it depends
10. Want someone you don't have right now: yeah
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: hahaha, yep
12. Do you want to get married: yes
13. Do you want kids: 2
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: no
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: hair and eyes.
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: dont know.
18. Are you happy with you: sometimes but im kinda fat.
19. Are you happy with your life: i wish
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: to get the girl i want and have good friends.
[ Current Clothes ]boxers and a 310 shirt
[ Current Mood ] cold and bored
[ Current Music ] the startling line
[ Current Taste ] dr. pepper
[ Current Make-up ] nothing
[ Current Hair] kinda wet cuz i just took a shower.
[ Current Smell ] clean
[ Current thing I ought to be doing ] finishing school, get a job, find a gf, start a band
[ Current Desktop Pictur] a picture of the sunset i took
[ Current Favorite Artist ] btbam and hanson
[ Current Favorite Group ] ryan griffins 3rd grade art group
[ Current Book you're reading ] dont read
[ Current CD in CD Player ] coma eternal
[ Current DVD in player ] no friends 5, its a bodyboarding video.
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] nothing on them
[ Current Refreshment ] Dr Pepper
[ Current Worry ] why i dont have a girlfriend and why im sooo lazy.
falling cycle tomorrow. whos going?
beavr3030: cuz youre gay.
SmarterChild: I think you're gay too!
beavr3030: what are your favorite bands?
SmarterChild: I really like Nirvana, Jay-Z, the All-American Rejects...
that shit is sooo funny.
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[12 Jan 2004|11:37pm] |
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tonight, i had dinner with will, missy, kim, and riquel. it was alot of fun. tomorrow is scars at allen theatre. i need a ride. <3
i was thinking tonight how much i love and miss alex from az. i think shes one of my favorite girls of all times. oh man. i can write about her all day. haha
i just hope i see her soon.
<333 love you alex <333
got this from beau:
[Spell your name backwards] revaeb
[Where do you live?] Mar Vista, CA
[Describe yourself in three words] dumb, stupid, lame
[Who is your worst enemy?] myself
[If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?] a beaver
[coffee cup] coffee is nasty
[sunglasses] i got good eyes.
[underwear] no underwear
[shoes] house shoes
[nail polish] nope
[handbag] i dont have one.
[favorite top] copeland, loftus, hanson
[favorite pants] my black ones
[cd in stereo right now] fallen angel
[tattoos] none
[piercings] ears and septum!
[current song] copeland-california
[wearing] coma eternal hoodie/copeland shirt/black jeans
[hair] terrible like always
[makeup] yuck
[in my head] alex, and how im getting a ride to scars tomorrow.
[hearing] my mom
[wishing] i could have a nice cute girlfriend.
[after this] have fun
[talking to] no one
Today I...
at wills. then wills school. then hanging with missy, will, and me. and then went to kims house. and then CPK with missy, kim, will, RIQUEL!!!, and me.
5 Facts About Me...
1. i make some people laugh i hope
2. i'm straight edge.
3. i have an AMAZING best friend. RIQUEL!!
4. i am alone alot.
5. i need to start school
5 Things I'd Like To Do Before I Die...
1. join a good band and tour
2. have a great wife
3. travel alot
4. have childrenS
5. have AWESOME friends.
Name Your Fav Band/Artist That Starts w/ Each Letter:
A - after tomorrow/anberlin
B - between the buried and me
C - coma eternal
D - dead to fall
E - everytime i die
F - final fight/first blood
G - glassjaw
H - hopesfall
I - ion dissonance
J - jamison parker
K - killswitch engage
L - loftus
M - martyr ad
N - new Found Glory
O - osker
P - prayer for cleansing
Q - queen
R - recover
S - seven angels seven plagues/samarah
T - the movielife
U - unearth
V - no one
W - walls of jericho
X - xbonexsandwichx/xdeathstarx
Y - yellowcard
Z - zao
THANKS, BEAU
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[10 Jan 2004|11:51pm] |
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i love my OBFF!!!!!!!!!!!!! shes the best person in the world.
<3
THE END.
PS-im seeing prayer for cleansing in NC.
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[09 Jan 2004|10:04pm] |
PS. kristin and i started talking again and it makes me sooooooo happy. <3 also, i got a new layout. thanks ana.
<310
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[09 Jan 2004|08:54pm] |
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i hope i can hang out with candely tonight. shes leaving for college on sunday and im going to miss her. pooh. today, i hung out with sarah. went to taco bell and the 99 cent store. it was awesome. thats it.
<3
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[08 Jan 2004|12:36pm] |
anyone is talking about anberlin. whats wrong wit them? i think they are an awesome band. if you dont listen them, get over it. sorry that i dont only listen to hardcore. and i know they are a christian band, mostly of hardcore and emo/punk is christian thses days. i dont care when people write songs about or if hes some cute guy singing. i care the music.
thanks
xxx
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[08 Jan 2004|01:20am] |
as I sit by myself
I've come from so so far away
in such little time I have gained
my soul my mind
I've tried so hard to find
is this what I must do to get by
and I ask myself why
why don't you write
why don't you call me
I'll wait here
I'll find my way
or will you help me
help me share
does she understand me
or listen to what I say
turn her back on my dreams
watching waiting
no turning back
find my way out
no turning back
turn your back on my dreams
so strong so weak
rest on your choice
is this what I must do
decide
why
I know
decide
why
I know
decide
why
I know
yeah
why don't you write
why don't you call me
I'll wait here
I'll find my way
or will you help me
help me share
I'll find my way out
find my way out
I'll find my way...
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